Some Terrifying News

Bsd

I heard some terrifying news that indicated there is a terrorist group in Crown Heights. I think we need to form an anti-terrorist group that will terrorize the terrorists. My dearly beloved suggested we subscribe the terrorists to dirty websites.

What say you?

Shall we stand up and fight?

Whirlwind

Bsd

It's snow-globe snowing out, and I have magically cleaned clothes.

I studied for my test tomorrow, and my chosson has two apartments we're going to check out.

I am in a whirlwind, but I am taming it.

Angry roommates, broken toilets, and children who won't go to sleep at naptime- they cannot disturb my delicate control.

I am told this is a precious time.

I vow to appreciate that.

To treasure every time Yisroel/Jonathan does something that makes me realize how amazing he is and how lucky I am.

To learn something about Hilchos Kashrus before I get a bunch of brand-new dishes.

To stay up late doing nothing.

To let the snow fall in my hair.

To try to create new connections between people I care about.

To pass my second semester of school.

Let it snow - I will appreciate its crazy beauty.

Nervous

Bsd
I'm at school, an hour earlier than I need to be, and yet somehow not ready.
I'm supposed to be giving two full-body massages to real clients, and I don't have my uniform shirt. I'm supposed to get one from my friend who is practicing right before me, but I just realized we're cutting the time for the transfer super, super, super close. So I'm kind of freaking out. Bowel-shaking, heart-pounding, sweat-inducing freaking out. And I can't even worry about giving the massage because I'm so worried about not being dressed right!!!!!!!!!
WHY DO I ALWAYS LEAVE THINGS TO THE LAST MINUTE???????????????????????

My Troubled Relationship... with School

Bsd
Haha. Sorry for the drama of the title. I'm in a superbly weird mood. Have been for a few days, but it is peaking now.
I hate that school is like this for me right now. I used to love it. Get up excited (well, maybe not. But usually I'd get excited at some point). Now I had to bribe myself with a book in order to make myself attend today. I guessed almost every answer on the test we took. It didn't help that I wasn't present at last week's class.
And it's all of it. On Sunday, I am expected to perform TWO MASSAGES ON REAL PEOPLE. Not fellow students, who will get it if you have to stop halfway through and look at your notes.
I have to buy uniforms, and folders, and stuff. I have to pay tuition. My phone fell in the sink last night and is totally dead. This is after surviving a fall into chicken soup.
WHY G-D??
I'm ranting and raving and whining.
But I'm supposed to be deliriously happy, and I am - when I space out on the subway, imagining the picture of me in my wedding dress and Converse.
But all this school and messy room and money stuff is SERIOUSLY bringing me down.
Like way, way, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay down.
Like I'm beyond bummed and into hyper-depression, where I get sarcastic and talk to myself - LOUDLY.
So right now I hate school. Hate work. Hate everything because I DO NOT HAVE A HANDLE ON IT.